Every December 6th the cemetery does a program based on Richard Evans' book "The Christmas Box Angel." They light up a huge Christmas tree and we can hang ornaments with our child's name engraved on it.
This is our fifth year going.
Our fifth Christmas.
Sometimes I just miss Gavin so much it hurts.
Sometimes it all makes sense and I feel so much peace.
But the miracle in my life is that I am at a place where I can feel both joy and grief.
Five years ago I thought I would never feel happiness again - but I do.
I still miss him.
I still grieve and my heart aches.
But I have been given much to bring me joy and happiness.
It was so nice to go tonight and be reminded of all the things that are TRULY important.
Life is good.