Hair Wolf

My Aunt Laurie bought this outfit for Jack. We thought it was too cute and had to take a picture. (The words on the outfit say Hair Wolf - we thought it was appropriate for Jack.)

Dad's Welcome Home From Work

This sweet boy . . . . . . did this . . .

. . . on dad last night.

Bedhead

Where is this kid's mom to comb his hair?

Today I Am Thankful For

Little eyes that see

A little nose that smells

Little ears that hear

A little mouth that smiles

And a love so big

It's hard to imagine life before my two sons.

Time With Mom After An Evening Bath

This Is Where I Found Jack And His Dad

when a diaper change was supposed to be happening . . .

You Can Tell They Are Brothers By Their Hair!

Please don't judge us . . . we don't have the heart to cut our newborns' hair!

Gavin's Mullet

Jack's Mullet

Please Excuse the Short Blogging Break - I Have a Baby to Attend To!

I have a little boy who is demanding my attention full time - and I love every minute of it.
Jack is loving all the attention he is receiving from family and friends.
The nights are exhausting (from about midnight to 6 am) but overall our little Jack is a good baby.
A true blessing to our family.
Hopefully we can get into some kind of schedule soon . . .
but for now I am off to rock our baby.
Here are a few pictures to appease.

Baby Bailey is Here!

Jack Jason Bailey was born January 14, 2009 at 12:08PM. Lindsay, Jack and Jason are all doing great. Jack weighed 7 pounds 4 ounces and measured 18 3/4 inches. The little guy has tons of dark brown hair and dark eyes. He has cried and scrunched up his face and done all the normal things a baby does within hours of birth. We are all so happy to have him here with us and thank everyone for the many prayers and support over the last few months! (written by Aunt Becca)

My Three Boys

Dear Sweet Baby Boy,

We are so excited and nervous anticipating your arrival. We know the time is soon to meet you. I can't believe how much you have already stolen my heart. I hope I can be the mom you deserve. You have been such a blessing to our lives already. You have helped us heal and find a purpose for joy in our lives.

I am sure you have been having a fun time with your older brother Gavin and I am sure he has told you all about us and life here on earth. It's such a blessing to know that you will always have him as a protector. I hope that throughout your life you will have moments where you remember him - that you will be able to remember how much an eternal family means to all of us and you will understand the desire we have to be together as a family for eternity.

I feel I must ask for a little forgiveness upfront. The birthing experience your father and I have had has been difficult. Your brother's birth was full of joy and despair. The idea of a healthy baby is difficult to imagine. But we have hope and faith that your life will be full and long.

We have many fun plans for you, Baby Boy. There are so many things we can't wait to teach you and tell you about. A laugh, a cry, a late night, a smile, a pat on my face, a wrinkled up nose and a finger grasp are all miracles to us. You are a miracle to us already.

Meeting you will be one of the most sacred and special days of my life. I love you. I can't wait to hold you in my arms and kiss your sweet face. I will see you soon.

Love,

Momma

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Dear Gavin,

Oh how you have changed our lives. Every experience with you has been beautiful and good. There isn't a moment with you I wish to forget - even the difficult moments. You brought peace and comfort at all times. I knew you had an insight that I did not have. I wish I had that wisdom.

As I am sure you are aware, your little brother will be coming to our home soon. You have had time to be together. I ask you to always watch over him. Let him feel the love you always shared with us. He will need you. We all need you.

I, also have to ask your forgiveness. I can't help but feel a little bit of mother's guilt feeling so much excitement and joy for this new baby boy. I don't want you to think you are being replaced. You will forever be the most special blessing of my life. My time with you is some of the most precious moments - ones that will never ever be forgotten or replaced. '

Gavin, I worry I won't be the kind of mother this little boy needs because I still miss you so deeply. Please help me make up where I lack. The other night I had a dream and in it, I was nursing your baby brother but I was crying - missing you - wishing I would have had this time with you too. Please help us feel your love and comfort. You always seemed to make everything feel okay.

Life is beautiful Gavin. I never thought I would be able to say that again - but there is a reason we have hope. Your presence in my life has taught me that. Your picture hangs all over our house. We will tell this baby all about you and how much we love the two boys we have been blessed with.

Your work is important Gavin. I know that. I believe that. It is because of that knowledge I can have hope, faith and joy. Please know I love you. You are a special boy and I am blessed to be your mother.

Love,

Momma

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Dear Sweet Husband,

Tonight I feel I must tell you how honored I am to spend my life with you. I could list all of the reasons I am crazy about you - but it would take forever and I would inevitably miss a few qualities I adore.

Life with you has been more beautiful than I ever had expected. We have had times of disappointments, challenges and changes but you have always been constant. You never wavered with your love for me, your sons or your Heavenly Father. You have been a foundation in our home. You have lifted me in despairing times and have in return given me the opportunity to stretch and have my testimony grow as well.

I couldn't have asked for a more perfect father for my two sons. I watched you battle belting in the car seat this last weekend and it hit me - you love this new baby boy so much. I watched you clean up our Gavin's headstone on Sunday and it hit me again - you love him too. This evening as my body is tired and uncomfortable you did all you could to help make my life a little bit easier. You are a wonderful husband and father. Never in a million years could I find another man like you.

Today when I told you of my anxieties and fears you said, "I will be right there with you." I never doubt that. I know you will be. I am a lucky girl to have a guy like you.

I love you,

Lindsay

Our Last Night Out For A Bit

At my last doctor's appointment I was informed that I am progressing well and that the baby will most likely be here around or before the middle of this upcoming week. (My due date is the 21st - but the doctor says we won't make it that far.) So, last night Jason and I went out with some friends for a fun "night out" before the baby gets here. We knew it might be the last night out for a bit and we may be spending more time at home than we are used to. We went to the Melting Pot for cheese and chocolate fondue (YUM!) and then to see "Marley and Me." We had such a fun time with great food and super fun friends. Now it's time to bring the baby home and start adapting to all that change I have been talking about . . .

New Year Resolution

Every January 1st I have a running list in my mind of all the things I am "resolving" to do that year. Ususally, the list is deatiled and almost identical to the list I made the year before filled with high aspirations and determination to make myself a better person. This year I have ONE resolution.

ADAPT TO CHANGE.

We have had so many changes in the past few weeks and we have a few more big changes ahead of us. This is my year to embrace change and be happy with all the different aspects of life that awaits us.

Christmas 2008

We had a really nice Christmas this year. Jason and I had most of the week off from work and we were able to enjoy the holiday season at my parents house this year. Normally, we would have been in Salt Lake City, UT - but since we are too far along in the pregnancy our doctors advised us to stay near home. Christmas was nice and quiet. It was a good time to reflect on the blessings in our lives and a wonderful opportunity to imagine the fun Christmases ahead of us.

The stockings were hung by the chimney with care.

We had a super fun Christmas Eve Fiesta with my cute sister in law Lauren's family.And on Christmas morning we found out that Santa had left gifts for us at my parents home!Matt looking at the calendar my mom made for everyone. It's full of pictures and so much fun!The newly weds - James and Lauren.Christmas Morning Breakfast made my Grandma and Grandpa Bridges. My cousin Rachel and her new husband Daniel came over for the morning as well.
Nothin like the early morning Christmas pictures with no make-up. UGH! My sister Becca was having a fun time feeling the baby move all morning.We all gathered for a little Rock Band II concert later that morning.

Christmas in Heaven

A friend of mine sent this poem to me. It's difficult to be without those we love during the holiday season. I thought the second Christmas would be easier . . . it really wasn't. Holidays just aren't the same now. They are not care free and easy to enjoy. Every time I see all of my family gathered together I am reminded that my son isn't there.

How grateful I am for the gift of the atonement and the opportunity we have to celebrate Christ's birth at this time of year. It is because of His sacrifice that we will be with our families forever and that death cannot separate us forever. Celebrating the birth of our Savior has a whole new meaning to me now.

This poem brings perspective and helps me remember that they really aren't that far away from us.

I see the countless Christmas Trees around the world below
With tiny lights, like heaven’s stars, reflecting in the snow.
The sight is so spectacular, please wipe away that tear,
For I am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.

I hear the many Christmas songs that people hold so dear,
But the sounds of music can’t compare with the Christmas Choir up here.
I have no words to tell you, but the joy their voices bring,
For it is beyond description to hear the Angels sing.

I send you each a special gift from my heavenly home above,
I send you each a memory of my undying love.
After all, “LOVE” is the gift more precious than pure gold,
It was always most important in the stories Jesus told.

Please love and keep each other, as our Father said to do,
For I can’t count the blessings or love He has for you.
So have a Merry Christmas and wipe away that tear,
Remember, I’m spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.

Merry Christmas Gavin.

Our Little Snow Angel

These pictures are a few weeks old, but I wanted to post them anyway. Two weeks ago we had a snow storm in Las Vegas! It was crazy! The next morning I was driving to work and when I saw how peaceful the cemetery looked I asked Jason to stop by and take pictures before the snow melted. It may be one of the only times we get pictures like these living in the desert!

The Last Perinatologist Appointment

Today we had our final appointment with our perinatologist. We had another detailed ultrasound and the doctor said we are all set to have this baby. He continues to seem very optimistic about this little (or not so little) guy's health. We will continue to have our biweekly non-stress tests with my regular OB and wait for his arrival!

Today I am 36 weeks - Gavin was born at 36 weeks. Gavin weighed 5 lbs. 6 oz. at birth . . . today this guys weighed in at 6 1/2 lbs! Yikes! We are just so thrilled that things continue to look good and he appears to be healthy.

Here are a few pictures from the ultrasound today:

He Did It!

Jason graduated with his Masters in Business (MBA) Tuesday December 16, 2008 from UNLV. I can't even begin to express my love and admiration for Jason and his hard work. He has worked hard and fought through so many good and trying times. Watching Jason walk across the stage to receive his diploma was amazing.

After the ceremony we went to Lawry's for dinner. It was great to have family here to support him and recognize the time and hard work he has devoted to his schooling.

I am so proud of you, Jason. I knew when I married you that you were a hard worker - but you continue to amaze me every single day. I love you.

Month 8!

This picture is a little late. I must be preoccupied. :)Things are going well and the doctors feel confident that the baby is going to be healthy. He is quite a mover . . . much, much more than Gavin ever was. The non-stress tests are all coming back with good reactive results.

Five more weeks to go!

Christmas Traditions

We all have them . . . Christmas traditions. Jason and I have started a new tradition this year that we intend to carry on for years to come. Gavin's Christmas Tree. Last year some of Jason's extended family decorated a beautiful tree for the PCMC Festival of Trees in Gavin's name. Jason's parents were kind enough to purchase the tree and gave it to us so we can have a sweet reminder of our Gavin during the Christmas season.

We have decided to put up Gavin's Christmas Tree in remembrance of him and to help teach our other children about their older brother.

It was a bitter sweet evening decorating Gavin's tree this year.

And wrapping the little lamb he loved on the tree.

But his memory reminds us to have

and his life taught us how to haveand

Merry Christmas my Little Bug. Momma and Daddy love you.