A Blessing And A Name

I just wanted to back track for a moment. . . my last entry was so short and there is so much I wanted to say. On Saturday October 27, 2007 we knew that Gavin would not live too much longer. It had become very apparent that his situation was rapidly declining and that he would be leaving us soon. The staff was so amazing at PCMC. . . they catered to every religious wish we asked for. The one thing we wanted was to bless Gavin giving him a name. I have to admit, this is NOT the way I thought of blessing our baby. Most parents get to do it on Sunday in front of the whole congregation, but I soon got over my moment of selfishness and asked if we could buy a blessing outfit nearby. My mother-in-law and I were escorted by the charge nurse to a closet full of blessing outfits. I picked out this beautiful white suit for Gavin to wear while his dad gave him a name and a blessing. They also gave us a white blanket to lay him on in his crib. Jason and I went back to Gavin and we were able to bathe him and get him dressed. It was quite the ordeal to get the blessing suit on him with all of the monitors and attachments he had on his little body. It was a beautiful experience to bathe our son and dress him like an angel.

The staff allowed all of our parents, siblings, and grandparents to come back around his crib while Jason gave the blessing. Gavin was awake and focused as each person came to talk to him. My baby. . . my sweet little baby. Jason gave a beautiful blessing, and there are things he promised Gavin that I will never forget. How blessed we are to know that the Lord loves little children. That day, I knew without a doubt, that the Lord loved Gavin and our family so much. Even in a trying, sad and desperate time, Gavin calmed our spirits and testified to us that there are eternal families and that if we live according to what we have been taught, we will be together again. My sweet little boy . . . I have learned more from you in three months than I would have been able to teach you in a lifetime. I love you my baby Gavin.