We are trying to stay focused on the good times we had with Gavin. This time of year is proving to be very difficult for us. Much more difficult than we anticipated. Reliving the memories can be exhausting and excruciating - but we know there were happy times as well. So . . . here is my happy memory for the day. The picture is a little fuzzy, but it's cute nonetheless. One day in September, my mom and and I walked into the Valley NICU to find Gavin in this light green and pink outfit. He was wide awake and seemed unsure of his new clothing (he usually hung out in the nude). At Valley we weren't able to bring in clothing for Gavin - for sanitary purposes - which I really understand and appreciate their dedication to our children's health. So, as Gavin grew bigger and packed on the pounds the hospital clothing selection became limited. I finally donated most of Gavin's 0-3 month pajamas to Valley, but not before we found him in this cute little number! You can't see it in the picture, but there was a HUGE pink flower down the side of this outfit. I was so happy that day to see Gavin awake and alert, so I didn't really pay attention to the girly pink flower that proved to be so controversial. When I showed Jason the pictures of Gavin that night - I couldn't understand why he wasn't jumping up and down like I was. He just looked at me and said, "Linz, he is wearing A GIRL'S outfit." I thought he was cute in the green . . . but after that we stuck with more masculine colors - for dad's sake!