Happy 1st Birthday Gavin

Today is our sweet baby Gavin's 1st birthday. I can't believe it has been a year! This day last year, our world was turned upside down as we welcomed our son into this world. Our lives haven't been the same since - and I never want that to change. Our little Gavin was born with numerous unexpected health issues and challenges . . . all which were incompatible with life. Today we celebrate the 94 days we spent with Gavin here on this earth, knowing that we have eternity left to spend with him. Today so many questions ran through my mind. I find that I don't ask "why" so much anymore, but I wonder what Gavin would have been like had he been a healthy and normal little boy. Would he have loved the bug themed birthday party we threw for him? Would he have run around a park with balloons? What would his favorite 1st birthday gift be? I also find myself wondering what Gavin is doing in heaven. He was a sweet and precious boy that didn't have to endure this earthly experience. He didn't need to prove himself like I do. He was valiant and strong from the beginning - and many times I feel inadequate to be his mother. His short 94 days have left an impression on my soul that will never be changed. I am forever changed because of this special little boy who was given to us this day last year.

So, Happy Birthday Gavin! You are the light of our lives. You have brought more purpose and meaning to our lives. Your mommy and daddy love you and want you to know that we are proud of you and all you have done. We had a birthday party for you last night with your grandparents, aunts and uncles. We talked about you and looked at pictures. This morning so many of us gathered to set off 94 balloons in the air to represent your amazing 94 days with us. You are a little boy who is loved by so many. Your daddy and I hope you were able to hear us sing happy birthday to you and blow out your 1st birthday candles. We miss you Bug - but we know we will see you someday, and that reunion will be so joyful. You are in our thoughts every moment of the day. Keep working hard, Gav. Happy Birthday and we love you more than you could ever imagine.

Love,
Mommy and Daddy